BONNIE KAYE'S STRAIGHT TALK
March 2017 Volume 18,
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HAPPY 16 YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO MY READERS
This month marks the anniversary of my first newsletter
in March of 2001. Sometimes I really feel like “retiring” because how much can
any one person keep saying? But I keep going, fueled by your letters and your
pain. In all of these years, the situation has barely changed at all. Women
still feel the emotional “isolation” while going through this even though
millions of us are doing or have done it. Believe me, it’s not a handful when
the numbers are in the millions—and that’s just in this country.
In the years since I’ve started writing these
newsletters, I’ve had over 27,000 monthly readers, many whom have gone on to
new lives and healing wishing me goodbye and thanks. I was their “lifeline”
during this time of numbness and confusion. When people “graduate” and asked to
be removed from the list, I am so happy to say goodbye and good luck. Being a
straight wife does not have to define your future. The goal is to heal from it
and restart your life over. Many of our women have found real happiness with a
straight man. Others have found happiness being alone on their own by CHOICE.
Either way is the right way. There is no wrong way to move on except for one
way—finding a mentally or physically abusive situation again with a predator
who senses your weakness after a destructive marriage. Sadly, this happens, too,
when women don’t spend the time they need in Gay Husband Recovery. They run and
jump too fast looking for love in all the wrong places. They haven’t learned
the lesson from that famous Whitney Houston song that learning to love yourself,
it is the greatest love of all.
That may sound trite—but ask someone who has found
happiness again, and she’ll tell you that it’s true. If you don’t love yourself
enough, you will never get the love you deserve and should expect to find with
a man. You’ll settle for less—and still not find inner peace. A true
relationship with a new partner has to be one based on fulfilling your
needs—not just you walking down that street of pleasing a man so he will stay
with you. You did that for enough years of your life—and it doesn’t work. It
doesn’t matter that your new husband is straight—in fact, it’s worse. At least
with a gay husband you know the problems were because he was gay, but with a
straight husband, there are different problems. Now it’s not the “gay” messing
up your life—it’s other problems that you may not even know about that you have
to now face. And trust me, you’ll fall back into those old habits of having to
do all of the pleasing like you did/are doing with your gay husband because you
will be convinced that “you” are the problem. That’s just the way it is.
If you are strong when you are ready to meet a new partner,
you’ll have a better chance of seeing those red flags of danger waving in your
face and knowing when to run in the other direction. Your new mantra will be
“NEVER AGAIN!” Hopefully you won’t get
your heart broken too badly, and even more hopefully, you’ll gain back some
sexual confidence and insight into sex with a straight man. I always say that
no experience is wasted experience—even if it isn’t the “forever” experience.
These “starter relationships” help you realize that you aren’t emotionally
wounded or sexually numbed forever. They awaken feelings in you that you
thought were gone, and that is the purpose they serve.
One thing that saddens me the most is that after all of
these years of writing, talking, speaking, and spreading the word, straight
wives still don’t matter. No one has taken up our cause of seeing how
we are the true heroes and how we continue to suffer. I hate to keep repeating
this message, but I can’t help it. I want us to feel like “victors” more than
“victims,” and the only way that will happen is when society acknowledges that
we are SUPERWOMEN who withstood more
pain than almost any other woman does. We try our hardest to make our hubbies happy
but to no avail. We are missing that magic wand if you get the double meaning
there. No matter how loving and helpful we are, it will never replace what he
really wants and needs—and it’s not us—it’s a man.
Over the next five years, I plan to move things to a new
height is getting people to understand why we are the real heroes here—not
“self-imposed” whiners who must have known that our husbands were gay. Yep.
That’s what many on the outside think. They are so smug in thinking that we
knew but accepted it anyway. Sometimes they even think that we caused
it—misinformation thrown into the fire by some angry gay men. But we know the
truth. The truth is we didn’t know “gay.” We didn’t understand “gay.” We
couldn’t conceive why a man who wanted men would want to marry us. Some of us
still don’t understand it—but we have to live with it because it’s the truth.
I am looking for women who will stand with me while I do
battle with what the screwed up divorce system this country has called NO FAULT
DIVORCE when there is a fault. It’s misleading to think that these marriages
are like other marriages when they are not. There is no fault here when our gay
husbands reveal they are gay and want to leave. That’s not our fault—it’s his
fault. That’s why I am going to challenge the NO FAULT and try to change it to YOUR FAULT divorce. It’s going to take
a lot of fighting because in this country, divorce is done state by state.
There are some states that accept adultery as a reason for divorce, but they
don’t consider gay sex as adultery. Something must be done to change the laws.
I am asking my readers to see who will help me on this
mission. I’ve asked before, but the response was not enough to start this
moving. I think you can see that now is the time for us to unite and start
standing up for ourselves. Until the world can understand that STRAIGHT WIVES MATTER, we will continue
to allow ourselves to feel minimized by not only our marriages,
but also by society.
If you want to help, please write to me and put the work
READY in the subject box. We’ll take it from there. And maybe by the time of my
next newsletter anniversary, we will have made great strides. Tell all of your
straight wives friends from other groups that we need to be allies and fight
this together. If we do this in a united way, I know we can win. The battle has
A TRIBUTE TO MARGIE M. – A HEROINE DEAD AT AGE 32 IN 1989
I have written about hundreds of topics over the past 16
years of this newsletter. Yes, this month marks 16 years of endlessly writing
about topics that affect women who married gay or bi men looking at every
possible story or thought that came my way—except for one.
I felt the need to write about this now because I’ve
never addressed it before. But as the years go on and people still don’t get
that STRAIGHT WIVES MATTER, it
continues to jolt my mind in so many directions of why we feel so “minimized”
in this situation.
A friend of mine recently wrote that he is so excited to
be in a play about AIDS. It made me think about the whole situation of this
horrific disease that created one of the darkest clouds of terror that our
country faced in my adult life. It was such an ugly time of watching people
behaving at their worst out of pure fear (which was understandable) and in many
cases, ignorance (which is also expected whenever there is fear).
There is no way that I will minimize this horror story
that gay men faced as they died painful and isolated deaths due in many cases
to refusal of medical personnel to treat then due to fear of contamination. In
the early days of AIDS, it was believed that the disease was airborne and you
could catch it by being in the same space as someone. Those days were
frightening—and I knew it first-hand from my own experience.
My son was only four years old and attending nursery
school in 1986. Sadly, he was born with a rare genetic disease that caused his
death at the age of 23. In his early years, he had a number of hospitalizations
for treatment and surgery. I was invited to appear on the Sally Jesse Raphael
show to discuss straight/gay marriages, and I accepted the invitation. I was
getting hesitant to do television as my children were getting older even though
we had different last names as I didn’t want them to be affected by my
involvement on this issue. The show was national at that time, but it was shown
at 4:00 a.m. in Philadelphia which made me think I was “safe” as far as people
not seeing it in my area.
The show was scheduled to be shown about one month after the
filming. A week before the showing, my son was hospitalized for an infection
related to his rare disease. He was out of school for three weeks, and during
that time all hell broke loose. Petitions were sent to the nursery school
organized by a mother who woke up early that day and saw me on the show. She
saw that my husband was gay and my son was sick, therefore he must have AIDS.
Parents threatened to take their children out of school unless my son was
removed. The school stood by me and refused to remove my son. Several of these
women did remove their children from the school because of FEAR that I had no
control of no matter how many times I told them that my ex didn’t have AIDS and
my son was sick from a bacterial infection—not a viral one.
This situation made me so much more empathetic to people
infected by this deadly disease because I saw how people reacted to me and my
son—and this was just because someone put two and two together and it equaled
seven. I couldn’t even imagine the horrible life of people infected as they
were handed that death sentence.
Many movies were made about the horror of this disease
focusing on the pain these men went through. However, other than Precious, a
movie about a teenage girl infected via sex with her addicted father, very
little has been said about the women who died from this terrible death—meaning
those women who were infected by their gay husbands. No movies or tributes have
been done for them—and I know I was working with seven different women who died
during those years--not from sharing needles, but from sharing their husbands
with gay infected men. All of these seven women were blindsided—they learned of
their husbands’ homosexuality when one or the other became ill. Both of
them—husband and wife--died leaving orphans behind. Going through the nightmare
with these women forced me to take a step away for ten years because I couldn’t
deal with the emotional pit in my stomach anymore. It was too deep.
Here I will tell the story of one of these women—Margie
M. I met this lovely lady late in 1988. She had seen me on a television show
locally here in Philadelphia several years before I “disappeared” from the
public on television, and she found me on the Internet. I’ll never forget our first call because her
tears of hysteria are still fresh in my mind when I allow them to surface.
She called me and said she saw me on a show and felt I
was the only one who would understand her. I told her that I am here for those
women who find out their husbands are gay and that I understand her pain. She responded
to me with:
don’t. You can’t possibly understand my pain.”
I replied that I had worked with over a thousand women at
that point, and I really did understand. I had been there myself.
me ask you this, Bonnie,” she said. ‘How many other women have you worked with
who won’t be alive to raise their children because they have AIDS?”
I admitted none. She was my first, but sadly not my last.
Margie went on to tell me that she learned of her husband’s homosexuality when
she went to the doctor and tested positive for AIDS. She had started to exhibit
the symptoms of AIDS shortly after her husband. He went for a test, and when he
revealed the startling news to her, he told her that she needed to be tested as
well. And so with heavy heart and strong fear, she took the test which came out
Back then, AIDS was a death sentence. We both started
crying and continued throughout the conversation. Both she and her husband were
going to die and leave their three children behind. The children were then 5,
7, and 10. Both Margie and her husband had lost their parents, and the each
only had one sibling who was unable to care for the children. My heart broke
for her. We spoke five or six more times before her death seven months later.
Her husband had died two months earlier.
I felt very helpless to provide any comfort to this
heroic woman. Her husband—like many others—didn’t think about his actions and
how they would affect her. In fact, over 20% of the women who come to me have
some form of an STD. Thankfully, people today can live with HIV/AIDS, but it
isn’t easy. Men who are out there having sex and not taking precautions and
then coming home to their wives to have sex without taking precautions are at
best unconscionable. That’s why I tell every woman to get checked so she can
make sure that if she has an STD, it can be treated early.
Side note: I can’t help but mention the number of women
who have told me that their husbands turned their anger towards them when
learning about the STD claiming there was no way in the world they—the husband—could
be blamed. He would start blaming the wives of all kinds of infidelity which
never happened or sitting on a toilet seat to “acquire” crabs or herpes. These
women walked around feeling guilty and blaming themselves—some for years.
Men today have told me (gay husband men, that is) that
AIDS is totally different today because it is treatable. Most people are living
long lives, and with medication it can be controlled. I say, “Thanks, pal.”
Justifying this with stupidity is worse than not mentioning it at all. Too many
of our women have been diagnosed with every variety of STD’s. Some will carry
the scars forever because they are controllable—but not removable. This really
takes its toll when you are trying to start a new relationship. You really have
to scour the earth looking for a man that doesn’t mind that you have HIV and
says he couldn’t care less. Those kinds of guys are really like finding needles
in a haystack.
Getting back to my story of Margie, let me say this. There
were no movies made about her and the other number of women who died as a
result of their gay husbands’ infidelity. Those women were heroes in our midst
who were never acknowledged or even spoken about. I haven’t seen any movies
made about them, or heard much discussion. Many of them died with no peace of mind like
Margie wondering who would raise her children. They had the double blow of
learning their husbands were gay and then learning they were dying because of
In my research, I did find that the actress Amanda Blake,
best known as “Miss Kitty” on the show Gunsmoke, died from AIDS in 1989
which was a gift from her “bisexual” husband who also died from AIDS. I didn’t
see any tributes or movies made about her. My point is, until women are treated
with the same respect and admiration as their gay husband counterparts, we will
never achieve the recognition we deserve.
Wives DO Matter
even if we don’t talk about it. Society continues to make heroes out of the gay
men who come out late in life or pay tribute to those who died during the AIDS
crisis, but there are no tributes to the Margie’s of the world. And so Margie,
today I salute you and pay tribute to you and the other women who live with the
infections bestowed upon them by men who just didn’t care enough to do the
HAVE A HAPPY MONTH. Spring is on its way!
BONNIE KAYE'S STRAIGHT TALK
Volume 17, Issue 182
LIFE WAS NEVER MEANT TO BE THIS COMPLICATED. PERIOD.
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be part of this amazing weekend, please email me at Bonkaye@aol.com and put the
word “Healing” in the subject box. I will send you details. There is no charge
for the weekend outside of travel, lodging, and food. This is a life-changing
experience for people who need help during the grieving and recovery process.
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Last month, I was corresponding with a gay man who had never
been married to a woman. He was comfortable with his life as a gay man. He was
interested in the information on my website at www.gayhusbands.com. We had written back
and forth a few times, and I know that he truly did sympathize with women in
our situation. He also understood gay men who married us based on the pressures
of society especially during the times when homosexuality was not an option.
I am very clear—always—that I do
understand the reason why most gay men who marry women do so—especially during
the “dark ages” when gay was considered to be a death sentence. I do believe
these men loved us to the best of their ability as gay men—but it wasn’t the love
that we needed or deserved. I do believe they were hoping against hope that
loving us would push away that need for sexual contact with men—but it didn’t.
It just got worse. And the worse those feelings became, the more frustrated our
husbands became and took it out on us. We became the keeper of the prison key
to the prison that they set up for themselves. Don’t forget—we went into these
marriages with true love and pure hearts. Most of us didn’t marry out of
“desperation” like some gay men claim. We were kind and loving, and these men
were counting on that.
In time, rather than doing the right
thing, these men just keep doing their thing which means going out there and
cheating on you. Yes, call it compartmentalization or any similar word which
means separating your realities from each other, but they do it.
They are not
willing to do the “right thing” by being honest with you, but rather they make
you think that you are the one with the problem—not them. That’s where the
Okay, I’ve stated and overstated this
enough time over the years. So when this gentleman told me that he understands
that there are victims on both sides—I appreciated the fact that he
acknowledged our pain while so many others don’t. However, the more I thought
about it, I couldn’t let it just stay like that because the “victimization”
here is definitely not the same. This was my response to him:
I understand why
these gay men get married, but I don't think they understand what they do to an
innocent person when they do that. The same sense of societal rejection that he
(the gay husband) feels is the same kind of personal rejection she (the wife)
feels from him. I don't know if you're in a relationship or not, but I assume
that at some point you've been in one. Imagine how you would feel if you
partner kept sexually rejecting you and then started blaming you for
"smelling bad" or "having such bad breath that he couldn’t kiss
you" or "being too dull in bed." Worse yet--what if he told you
your penis size wasn't large enough for him? What if started to criticize how
you look, how you clean, how you cook, and anything else he could criticize
because the truth was he had a lover he wanted to be with--and it wasn't you.
Then you may have a slight insight into how women feel. Women love their gay
husbands and married them for that reason. They don't stop loving them when
they start feeling the sexual and emotional rejection--rather, they try harder
and harder to be better wives.
I have seen women
spend thousands of dollars "improving" themselves with breast
implants, breast reductions, liposuction, gastric bypasses, plastic surgery,
and lots of therapy to see why they aren't making their husbands happy. I
personally feel so saddened when women try everything when they can't win a
battle that can't be won.
Then there's the
social "stigma" of having a gay husband. People ostracize you for
marrying someone gay--or worse yet, claiming you must have lacked the ability
to be a good wife because he wasn't gay when he married you but became gay
later. Certain religions and cultures keep their children away from our
children because they find out the father was gay. About 20% of my women have
some form of an STD from their gay husband's indiscretions. Do you think this
In the late
1980's, I had approximately 11 women whom I supported call me that they were
dying from AIDS. They had no idea their husbands were gay up until this point.
Back then people didn't live with AIDS--they died and their husbands died
leaving the children with no parents to raise them. Was this fair? Today you
have to be happy if you have herpes or syphilis. At least they’re
treatable--but how many men want to date a woman with herpes--the
"gift" that lasts forever.
So, I have to say
that women truly are the victims of our society that "pushes" gay men
to marry. And there are plenty of younger people in your age bracket that I am
STILL working with.
There are some
gay men my age and older who never married. They didn't come out, but they
never married. You don't have to "come out" to be gay. You can live
your life with dignity and still do the right thing. No one has to know about
your sexuality by covering it up with a woman. There is a different choice that
gay men could make. It wasn't get married or come out--it was come out or stay
stand by those words. I am tired of people making heroes out of gay men who 35
or 40 years later “did the right thing” and come out. There is hardly a mention
of the straight wife, and if there is, she is not the hero. She is reduced to
just a by-product.
One woman who
knows how to articulate the pain we face is Kristin Kalbli. I found Kristin
several months ago and had the pleasure of having her as a guest on my radio
show. On Sunday, January 29, Kristin came back to my show for a second time and
promised to do it on a regular basis. The link to the show is here:
Last year, Kristin wrote an
excellent article that she allowed me share with you here. I know you will feel
her heart-felt words that express how almost all of the women in this network
feel. It concerns NY City Councilman James Vacca.
Vacca, a New York City Councilman who represents the 36th district
of Brooklyn, came out as a gay man on Twitter this week. According to the New
York Times, “the post was marked with the hashtags #outandproud #comingout and
was greeted with a flood of online support and praise from city and state
is undoubtedly a good thing for Councilman Vacca to be out of the closet, and I
congratulate him on his choice to finally live his truth with integrity. Yet an
important part of this story is being overlooked: his straight spouse, his
wife. While the congratulations and public support for Mr. Vacca pour in on
social media, his wife will not get the spotlight, or the same level of public
support. Not even close. In fact, she receives no mention in this article; it
is merely noted that councilman Vacca is "getting a divorce." In this
story, she is not even a person.
she is a person in the story, and she
has every bit as significant a part as Councilman Vacca. Hopefully, if this
experience (being married to a closeted gay man) is as traumatic for her as it
was for me (my ex-husband is now out after two failed marriages to women), she
will still receive a lot of support, although that support will likely be
privately and discretely shared away from the op-eds of the NYT.
we jump to praise and congratulate Councilman Vacca for his “bravery” upon
coming out, I would ask him a few questions. How long has he known he was gay?
Or when did he first begin grappling with his sexuality? Did he confide in his
wife immediately, as soon as there was a question? Or did he dissemble,
equivocate, and lie to keep her from intuiting the truth? In short, did he do
harm to her to keep himself safe?
see, many gay spouses spend years intentionally lying to straight spouses,
covering up the truth, throwing up smoke screens in ways large and small, so as
not to be discovered. There has been gaslighting, script-flipping, evasion,
denial, diversion and deception. Much of this is consciously and intentionally
done. These tactics, designed to throw the straight spouse off the trail,
severely damage the straight spouse's sense of reality, sanity, and often,
their sense of self. Lying and denial on this scale, and in a relationship this
intimate, takes enormous effort, and therefore the damage done to the
victim-spouse (yes, victim), and the
sense of betrayal is proportionally enormous. Especially when the blame for the
lack of physical intimacy in the marriage is laid at the straight spouse's
doorstep, as it often is to deflect suspicion. It is crazy-making. In the face
of such Herculean efforts to make the straight spouse doubt herself instead of
her gay husband, she will begin to doubt everything else: including her own
sanity, her goodness as a person, her ability to assess reality, her capacity
for trust. The very air in her home doesn't seem to be made of oxygen, because
it is made of a lie. It is the carbon monoxide of lies; you can’t see it, smell
it, taste it, but it still there, killing you slowly. You can intuit something
is “off”, but you can’t quite put your finger on it. And when you get “warm,”
(you find gay porn or some other evidence) your spouse will tell you are so,
so, so cold (“I don’t know what you are talking about! It’s not mine! You’re
crazy!”). Because they are still in the closet, and they are using you as it’s
door. It is a personal betrayal on the most intimate of human levels. And yes,
this is a high level of using another human being. And no, no one gets to do
the reasons for the gay spouse's hiding and deception are complex and nuanced,
and often understandable, they are NOT noble, and they are never excusable. And
sometimes, they are downright unconscionable. If two people are in a Mixed
Orientation Marriage, then both
people in that marriage have the right to know that. There is no excuse for
robbing someone else of the ability to consent to the kind of marriage they are
in. When one spouse unilaterally decides the other spouse does not need to know
they are in a MOM, they have unjustly robbed their spouse of informed consent. From personal
experience, being unable to consent to the kind of marriage I was in
constituted a deep violation of trust and bodily sovereignty that took nearly a
decade to come back from. (I would never have consented to marry him had I
known my ex husband was gay). It’s was a violation of my sexual agency (I would
never have consented to have sex with him had I known he was gay). It was a
violation of human decency (I was deprived of the potential for a loving,
sexually fulfilling, mutually nourishing marriage with a straight man for 2
consequences of these violations of the straight spouse’s life are severe:
PTSD, Major Depression, anxiety disorders, a deep sense of alienation from the
self and from reality, and when it all comes crashing down when he finally has
the “courage” to come out, a deep sense of betrayal because your whole life
together was a lie.
know none of the private details of Councilman Vacca’s life and marriage to his
wife. However, we have to stop seeing only the side of the story that
indiscriminately celebrates a gay spouse when he/she finally has the “courage”
to come out. Before that, there was a husband or wife who may or may not have
been traumatized, cruelly sexually rejected, deprived of consent, gaslighted or
used as a prop in a play of the gay spouse's creation, or worse, used as a
brood mare to produce children.
promise you, it is beyond devastating to find out you, a human being, were
merely used as a prop, a bit of set dressing, a trompe l'oeil, a
"beard." It is beyond enraging to learn, as we eventually do, that
someone you loved and trusted felt your life could be sacrificed for their
illusion, a mere currency they exchanged to buy and build a decoy life. It is a
kind of psychological rape that someone felt entitled to unilaterally decide
what kind of marriage you should be in, and you weren’t given a choice, because
of their fear (legitimate though that fear may have been). That a choice was
taken away from you each successive year you were kept in the dark and deceived
about the kind of marriage you had, each successive year you did not have
knowledge and did not give permission. Your spouse commandeered your life, and
didn’t tell you what you were being used for.
columnist and sex advice podcaster Dan Savage is famously unsympathetic to
closeted people, stating about one closet case in one advice column: "He
is being dishonest, and his chicken shit closet-case games require you to be
dishonest, too." This is what many straight spouses experience, only
without their knowledge or permission.
is not about demonizing closeted gay people. Many straight spouses stay quiet
about their pain and trauma precisely because we don't want to hurt or offend
our LGBT loved ones and friends, and we don't want to seem "too
angry" or too unsympathetic to the gay spouse's coming out journey. This
has to stop. It is nothing less than a form of violence to a soul to lie to
another person so thoroughly. A gay spouse is not excused because they are a persecuted
minority (and yes, they are a persecuted minority). You are not granted
permission to lie to someone on the most intimate of human levels, to shatter
someone else’s life because yours is hard.
This is an acknowledgment that wherever homophobia permeates a
society, forcing people into a closet so deep and so dark that they themselves
cannot bare to leave it, and will conscript non-consenting partners to maintain
it, no one, not even straight spouses, are left unscathed. There is real, and
lasting trauma. Let us acknowledge it.
you, Kristin, for your beautiful words. No writer moves me the way you do!
If you missed any of my recent
radio broadcasts, here is a link:
On 2/12/17, one of our favorite
guests, Dr. Margalis Fjelstad, spoke about our roles as caretakers with men who
are narcissists or have borderline personalities. I am so excited that Dr.
Fjelstad’s newest book Healing from a Narcissistic Relationship: A
Caretaker's Guide to Recovery, Empowerment, and Transformation will be out in late April or May. I’ll
announce when it is out, and Dr. Fjelstad will return to the show to discuss
the book. To listen to our show from the 2/12, here is the link:
Dr. Fjelstad has a FREE MONTHLY NEWSLETTER to help you set
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her mailing list. The words of this woman will definitely change your life—for
the better by giving you the tools to take back your life!
I’d like to send a special thanks to my dynamite monthly
co-hostess Coach Suzette Vearnon. She inspires us every single month. Here’s a
link to her February show to help you through the Valentine’s Day holiday:
Ladies, this marks the official end of the holiday season.
Life can start resuming now without facing the daily pain of family and lover
holidays. It’s time put the past few months behind you and let the sadness go.
Happier days are ahead. Just write to me at Bonkaye@aol whenever you need