Monday, March 20, 2017


March 2017     Volume 18, Issue 183
Bonnie’s Mantra:
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There is still time to come to my next HEALING WEEKEND which is only weeks away in Philadelphia on Saturday, April 29 – Sunday, April 30. If you would like to be part of this amazing weekend, please email me at and put the word “Healing” in the subject box. I will send you details. There is no charge for the weekend outside of travel, lodging, and food. This is a life-changing experience for people who need help during the grieving and recovery process.


This month marks the anniversary of my first newsletter in March of 2001. Sometimes I really feel like “retiring” because how much can any one person keep saying? But I keep going, fueled by your letters and your pain. In all of these years, the situation has barely changed at all. Women still feel the emotional “isolation” while going through this even though millions of us are doing or have done it. Believe me, it’s not a handful when the numbers are in the millions—and that’s just in this country.
In the years since I’ve started writing these newsletters, I’ve had over 27,000 monthly readers, many whom have gone on to new lives and healing wishing me goodbye and thanks. I was their “lifeline” during this time of numbness and confusion. When people “graduate” and asked to be removed from the list, I am so happy to say goodbye and good luck. Being a straight wife does not have to define your future. The goal is to heal from it and restart your life over. Many of our women have found real happiness with a straight man. Others have found happiness being alone on their own by CHOICE. Either way is the right way. There is no wrong way to move on except for one way—finding a mentally or physically abusive situation again with a predator who senses your weakness after a destructive marriage. Sadly, this happens, too, when women don’t spend the time they need in Gay Husband Recovery. They run and jump too fast looking for love in all the wrong places. They haven’t learned the lesson from that famous Whitney Houston song that learning to love yourself, it is the greatest love of all.

That may sound trite—but ask someone who has found happiness again, and she’ll tell you that it’s true. If you don’t love yourself enough, you will never get the love you deserve and should expect to find with a man. You’ll settle for less—and still not find inner peace. A true relationship with a new partner has to be one based on fulfilling your needs—not just you walking down that street of pleasing a man so he will stay with you. You did that for enough years of your life—and it doesn’t work. It doesn’t matter that your new husband is straight—in fact, it’s worse. At least with a gay husband you know the problems were because he was gay, but with a straight husband, there are different problems. Now it’s not the “gay” messing up your life—it’s other problems that you may not even know about that you have to now face. And trust me, you’ll fall back into those old habits of having to do all of the pleasing like you did/are doing with your gay husband because you will be convinced that “you” are the problem. That’s just the way it is. Period.

If you are strong when you are ready to meet a new partner, you’ll have a better chance of seeing those red flags of danger waving in your face and knowing when to run in the other direction. Your new mantra will be “NEVER AGAIN!”  Hopefully you won’t get your heart broken too badly, and even more hopefully, you’ll gain back some sexual confidence and insight into sex with a straight man. I always say that no experience is wasted experience—even if it isn’t the “forever” experience. These “starter relationships” help you realize that you aren’t emotionally wounded or sexually numbed forever. They awaken feelings in you that you thought were gone, and that is the purpose they serve.

One thing that saddens me the most is that after all of these years of writing, talking, speaking, and spreading the word, straight wives still don’t matter. No one has taken up our cause of seeing how we are the true heroes and how we continue to suffer. I hate to keep repeating this message, but I can’t help it. I want us to feel like “victors” more than “victims,” and the only way that will happen is when society acknowledges that we are SUPERWOMEN who withstood more pain than almost any other woman does. We try our hardest to make our hubbies happy but to no avail. We are missing that magic wand if you get the double meaning there. No matter how loving and helpful we are, it will never replace what he really wants and needs—and it’s not us—it’s a man.

Over the next five years, I plan to move things to a new height is getting people to understand why we are the real heroes here—not “self-imposed” whiners who must have known that our husbands were gay. Yep. That’s what many on the outside think. They are so smug in thinking that we knew but accepted it anyway. Sometimes they even think that we caused it—misinformation thrown into the fire by some angry gay men. But we know the truth. The truth is we didn’t know “gay.” We didn’t understand “gay.” We couldn’t conceive why a man who wanted men would want to marry us. Some of us still don’t understand it—but we have to live with it because it’s the truth.

I am looking for women who will stand with me while I do battle with what the screwed up divorce system this country has called NO FAULT DIVORCE when there is a fault. It’s misleading to think that these marriages are like other marriages when they are not. There is no fault here when our gay husbands reveal they are gay and want to leave. That’s not our fault—it’s his fault. That’s why I am going to challenge the NO FAULT and try to change it to YOUR FAULT divorce. It’s going to take a lot of fighting because in this country, divorce is done state by state. There are some states that accept adultery as a reason for divorce, but they don’t consider gay sex as adultery. Something must be done to change the laws.
I am asking my readers to see who will help me on this mission. I’ve asked before, but the response was not enough to start this moving. I think you can see that now is the time for us to unite and start standing up for ourselves. Until the world can understand that STRAIGHT WIVES MATTER, we will continue to allow ourselves to feel minimized by not only our marriages, but also by society.

If you want to help, please write to me and put the work READY in the subject box. We’ll take it from there. And maybe by the time of my next newsletter anniversary, we will have made great strides. Tell all of your straight wives friends from other groups that we need to be allies and fight this together. If we do this in a united way, I know we can win. The battle has just begun!


I have written about hundreds of topics over the past 16 years of this newsletter. Yes, this month marks 16 years of endlessly writing about topics that affect women who married gay or bi men looking at every possible story or thought that came my way—except for one.
I felt the need to write about this now because I’ve never addressed it before. But as the years go on and people still don’t get that STRAIGHT WIVES MATTER, it continues to jolt my mind in so many directions of why we feel so “minimized” in this situation.

A friend of mine recently wrote that he is so excited to be in a play about AIDS. It made me think about the whole situation of this horrific disease that created one of the darkest clouds of terror that our country faced in my adult life. It was such an ugly time of watching people behaving at their worst out of pure fear (which was understandable) and in many cases, ignorance (which is also expected whenever there is fear).

There is no way that I will minimize this horror story that gay men faced as they died painful and isolated deaths due in many cases to refusal of medical personnel to treat then due to fear of contamination. In the early days of AIDS, it was believed that the disease was airborne and you could catch it by being in the same space as someone. Those days were frightening—and I knew it first-hand from my own experience.

My son was only four years old and attending nursery school in 1986. Sadly, he was born with a rare genetic disease that caused his death at the age of 23. In his early years, he had a number of hospitalizations for treatment and surgery. I was invited to appear on the Sally Jesse Raphael show to discuss straight/gay marriages, and I accepted the invitation. I was getting hesitant to do television as my children were getting older even though we had different last names as I didn’t want them to be affected by my involvement on this issue. The show was national at that time, but it was shown at 4:00 a.m. in Philadelphia which made me think I was “safe” as far as people not seeing it in my area.

The show was scheduled to be shown about one month after the filming. A week before the showing, my son was hospitalized for an infection related to his rare disease. He was out of school for three weeks, and during that time all hell broke loose. Petitions were sent to the nursery school organized by a mother who woke up early that day and saw me on the show. She saw that my husband was gay and my son was sick, therefore he must have AIDS. Parents threatened to take their children out of school unless my son was removed. The school stood by me and refused to remove my son. Several of these women did remove their children from the school because of FEAR that I had no control of no matter how many times I told them that my ex didn’t have AIDS and my son was sick from a bacterial infection—not a viral one.

This situation made me so much more empathetic to people infected by this deadly disease because I saw how people reacted to me and my son—and this was just because someone put two and two together and it equaled seven. I couldn’t even imagine the horrible life of people infected as they were handed that death sentence.

Many movies were made about the horror of this disease focusing on the pain these men went through. However, other than Precious, a movie about a teenage girl infected via sex with her addicted father, very little has been said about the women who died from this terrible death—meaning those women who were infected by their gay husbands. No movies or tributes have been done for them—and I know I was working with seven different women who died during those years--not from sharing needles, but from sharing their husbands with gay infected men. All of these seven women were blindsided—they learned of their husbands’ homosexuality when one or the other became ill. Both of them—husband and wife--died leaving orphans behind. Going through the nightmare with these women forced me to take a step away for ten years because I couldn’t deal with the emotional pit in my stomach anymore. It was too deep.

Here I will tell the story of one of these women—Margie M. I met this lovely lady late in 1988. She had seen me on a television show locally here in Philadelphia several years before I “disappeared” from the public on television, and she found me on the Internet.  I’ll never forget our first call because her tears of hysteria are still fresh in my mind when I allow them to surface.

She called me and said she saw me on a show and felt I was the only one who would understand her. I told her that I am here for those women who find out their husbands are gay and that I understand her pain. She responded to me with:

          “No you don’t. You can’t possibly understand my pain.”

I replied that I had worked with over a thousand women at that point, and I really did understand. I had been there myself.

          “Well, let me ask you this, Bonnie,” she said. ‘How many other women have you worked with who won’t be alive to raise their children because they have AIDS?”

I admitted none. She was my first, but sadly not my last. Margie went on to tell me that she learned of her husband’s homosexuality when she went to the doctor and tested positive for AIDS. She had started to exhibit the symptoms of AIDS shortly after her husband. He went for a test, and when he revealed the startling news to her, he told her that she needed to be tested as well. And so with heavy heart and strong fear, she took the test which came out positive.

Back then, AIDS was a death sentence. We both started crying and continued throughout the conversation. Both she and her husband were going to die and leave their three children behind. The children were then 5, 7, and 10. Both Margie and her husband had lost their parents, and the each only had one sibling who was unable to care for the children. My heart broke for her. We spoke five or six more times before her death seven months later. Her husband had died two months earlier.

I felt very helpless to provide any comfort to this heroic woman. Her husband—like many others—didn’t think about his actions and how they would affect her. In fact, over 20% of the women who come to me have some form of an STD. Thankfully, people today can live with HIV/AIDS, but it isn’t easy. Men who are out there having sex and not taking precautions and then coming home to their wives to have sex without taking precautions are at best unconscionable. That’s why I tell every woman to get checked so she can make sure that if she has an STD, it can be treated early.

Side note: I can’t help but mention the number of women who have told me that their husbands turned their anger towards them when learning about the STD claiming there was no way in the world they—the husband—could be blamed. He would start blaming the wives of all kinds of infidelity which never happened or sitting on a toilet seat to “acquire” crabs or herpes. These women walked around feeling guilty and blaming themselves—some for years. Again—UNCONSCIENABLE.

Men today have told me (gay husband men, that is) that AIDS is totally different today because it is treatable. Most people are living long lives, and with medication it can be controlled. I say, “Thanks, pal.” Justifying this with stupidity is worse than not mentioning it at all. Too many of our women have been diagnosed with every variety of STD’s. Some will carry the scars forever because they are controllable—but not removable. This really takes its toll when you are trying to start a new relationship. You really have to scour the earth looking for a man that doesn’t mind that you have HIV and says he couldn’t care less. Those kinds of guys are really like finding needles in a haystack.

Getting back to my story of Margie, let me say this. There were no movies made about her and the other number of women who died as a result of their gay husbands’ infidelity. Those women were heroes in our midst who were never acknowledged or even spoken about. I haven’t seen any movies made about them, or heard much discussion.  Many of them died with no peace of mind like Margie wondering who would raise her children. They had the double blow of learning their husbands were gay and then learning they were dying because of it.

In my research, I did find that the actress Amanda Blake, best known as “Miss Kitty” on the show Gunsmoke, died from AIDS in 1989 which was a gift from her “bisexual” husband who also died from AIDS. I didn’t see any tributes or movies made about her. My point is, until women are treated with the same respect and admiration as their gay husband counterparts, we will never achieve the recognition we deserve.
Straight Wives DO Matter even if we don’t talk about it. Society continues to make heroes out of the gay men who come out late in life or pay tribute to those who died during the AIDS crisis, but there are no tributes to the Margie’s of the world. And so Margie, today I salute you and pay tribute to you and the other women who live with the infections bestowed upon them by men who just didn’t care enough to do the right thing.
HAVE A HAPPY MONTH. Spring is on its way!

Love, Bonnie  


January/February 2017     Volume 17, Issue 182
Bonnie’s Mantra:
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My next HEALING WEEKEND is only weeks away in Philadelphia on Saturday, April 29 – Sunday, April 30. If you would like to be part of this amazing weekend, please email me at and put the word “Healing” in the subject box. I will send you details. There is no charge for the weekend outside of travel, lodging, and food. This is a life-changing experience for people who need help during the grieving and recovery process.

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          Last month, I was corresponding with a gay man who had never been married to a woman. He was comfortable with his life as a gay man. He was interested in the information on my website at We had written back and forth a few times, and I know that he truly did sympathize with women in our situation. He also understood gay men who married us based on the pressures of society especially during the times when homosexuality was not an option.
          I am very clear—always—that I do understand the reason why most gay men who marry women do so—especially during the “dark ages” when gay was considered to be a death sentence. I do believe these men loved us to the best of their ability as gay men—but it wasn’t the love that we needed or deserved. I do believe they were hoping against hope that loving us would push away that need for sexual contact with men—but it didn’t. It just got worse. And the worse those feelings became, the more frustrated our husbands became and took it out on us. We became the keeper of the prison key to the prison that they set up for themselves. Don’t forget—we went into these marriages with true love and pure hearts. Most of us didn’t marry out of “desperation” like some gay men claim. We were kind and loving, and these men were counting on that.
          In time, rather than doing the right thing, these men just keep doing their thing which means going out there and cheating on you. Yes, call it compartmentalization or any similar word which means separating your realities from each other, but they do it.
They are not willing to do the “right thing” by being honest with you, but rather they make you think that you are the one with the problem—not them. That’s where the abuse begins.
          Okay, I’ve stated and overstated this enough time over the years. So when this gentleman told me that he understands that there are victims on both sides—I appreciated the fact that he acknowledged our pain while so many others don’t. However, the more I thought about it, I couldn’t let it just stay like that because the “victimization” here is definitely not the same. This was my response to him:

I understand why these gay men get married, but I don't think they understand what they do to an innocent person when they do that. The same sense of societal rejection that he (the gay husband) feels is the same kind of personal rejection she (the wife) feels from him. I don't know if you're in a relationship or not, but I assume that at some point you've been in one. Imagine how you would feel if you partner kept sexually rejecting you and then started blaming you for "smelling bad" or "having such bad breath that he couldn’t kiss you" or "being too dull in bed." Worse yet--what if he told you your penis size wasn't large enough for him? What if started to criticize how you look, how you clean, how you cook, and anything else he could criticize because the truth was he had a lover he wanted to be with--and it wasn't you. Then you may have a slight insight into how women feel. Women love their gay husbands and married them for that reason. They don't stop loving them when they start feeling the sexual and emotional rejection--rather, they try harder and harder to be better wives.
I have seen women spend thousands of dollars "improving" themselves with breast implants, breast reductions, liposuction, gastric bypasses, plastic surgery, and lots of therapy to see why they aren't making their husbands happy. I personally feel so saddened when women try everything when they can't win a battle that can't be won.
Then there's the social "stigma" of having a gay husband. People ostracize you for marrying someone gay--or worse yet, claiming you must have lacked the ability to be a good wife because he wasn't gay when he married you but became gay later. Certain religions and cultures keep their children away from our children because they find out the father was gay. About 20% of my women have some form of an STD from their gay husband's indiscretions. Do you think this is fair?
In the late 1980's, I had approximately 11 women whom I supported call me that they were dying from AIDS. They had no idea their husbands were gay up until this point. Back then people didn't live with AIDS--they died and their husbands died leaving the children with no parents to raise them. Was this fair? Today you have to be happy if you have herpes or syphilis. At least they’re treatable--but how many men want to date a woman with herpes--the "gift" that lasts forever.
So, I have to say that women truly are the victims of our society that "pushes" gay men to marry. And there are plenty of younger people in your age bracket that I am STILL working with.
There are some gay men my age and older who never married. They didn't come out, but they never married. You don't have to "come out" to be gay. You can live your life with dignity and still do the right thing. No one has to know about your sexuality by covering it up with a woman. There is a different choice that gay men could make. It wasn't get married or come out--it was come out or stay in.
          I stand by those words. I am tired of people making heroes out of gay men who 35 or 40 years later “did the right thing” and come out. There is hardly a mention of the straight wife, and if there is, she is not the hero. She is reduced to just a by-product.
One woman who knows how to articulate the pain we face is Kristin Kalbli. I found Kristin several months ago and had the pleasure of having her as a guest on my radio show. On Sunday, January 29, Kristin came back to my show for a second time and promised to do it on a regular basis. The link to the show is here:
Last year, Kristin wrote an excellent article that she allowed me share with you here. I know you will feel her heart-felt words that express how almost all of the women in this network feel. It concerns NY City Councilman James Vacca.
By Kristin Kalbli
Jan 28, 2016
James Vacca, a New York City Councilman who represents the 36th district of Brooklyn, came out as a gay man on Twitter this week. According to the New York Times, “the post was marked with the hashtags #outandproud #comingout and was greeted with a flood of online support and praise from city and state political figures.”
It is undoubtedly a good thing for Councilman Vacca to be out of the closet, and I congratulate him on his choice to finally live his truth with integrity. Yet an important part of this story is being overlooked: his straight spouse, his wife. While the congratulations and public support for Mr. Vacca pour in on social media, his wife will not get the spotlight, or the same level of public support. Not even close. In fact, she receives no mention in this article; it is merely noted that councilman Vacca is "getting a divorce." In this story, she is not even a person.
But she is a person in the story, and she has every bit as significant a part as Councilman Vacca. Hopefully, if this experience (being married to a closeted gay man) is as traumatic for her as it was for me (my ex-husband is now out after two failed marriages to women), she will still receive a lot of support, although that support will likely be privately and discretely shared away from the op-eds of the NYT.
Before we jump to praise and congratulate Councilman Vacca for his “bravery” upon coming out, I would ask him a few questions. How long has he known he was gay? Or when did he first begin grappling with his sexuality? Did he confide in his wife immediately, as soon as there was a question? Or did he dissemble, equivocate, and lie to keep her from intuiting the truth? In short, did he do harm to her to keep himself safe?
You see, many gay spouses spend years intentionally lying to straight spouses, covering up the truth, throwing up smoke screens in ways large and small, so as not to be discovered. There has been gaslighting, script-flipping, evasion, denial, diversion and deception. Much of this is consciously and intentionally done. These tactics, designed to throw the straight spouse off the trail, severely damage the straight spouse's sense of reality, sanity, and often, their sense of self. Lying and denial on this scale, and in a relationship this intimate, takes enormous effort, and therefore the damage done to the victim-spouse (yes, victim), and the sense of betrayal is proportionally enormous. Especially when the blame for the lack of physical intimacy in the marriage is laid at the straight spouse's doorstep, as it often is to deflect suspicion. It is crazy-making. In the face of such Herculean efforts to make the straight spouse doubt herself instead of her gay husband, she will begin to doubt everything else: including her own sanity, her goodness as a person, her ability to assess reality, her capacity for trust. The very air in her home doesn't seem to be made of oxygen, because it is made of a lie. It is the carbon monoxide of lies; you can’t see it, smell it, taste it, but it still there, killing you slowly. You can intuit something is “off”, but you can’t quite put your finger on it. And when you get “warm,” (you find gay porn or some other evidence) your spouse will tell you are so, so, so cold (“I don’t know what you are talking about! It’s not mine! You’re crazy!”). Because they are still in the closet, and they are using you as it’s door. It is a personal betrayal on the most intimate of human levels. And yes, this is a high level of using another human being. And no, no one gets to do that.
While the reasons for the gay spouse's hiding and deception are complex and nuanced, and often understandable, they are NOT noble, and they are never excusable. And sometimes, they are downright unconscionable. If two people are in a Mixed Orientation Marriage, then both people in that marriage have the right to know that. There is no excuse for robbing someone else of the ability to consent to the kind of marriage they are in. When one spouse unilaterally decides the other spouse does not need to know they are in a MOM, they have unjustly robbed their spouse of informed consent. From personal experience, being unable to consent to the kind of marriage I was in constituted a deep violation of trust and bodily sovereignty that took nearly a decade to come back from. (I would never have consented to marry him had I known my ex husband was gay). It’s was a violation of my sexual agency (I would never have consented to have sex with him had I known he was gay). It was a violation of human decency (I was deprived of the potential for a loving, sexually fulfilling, mutually nourishing marriage with a straight man for 2 decades).
The consequences of these violations of the straight spouse’s life are severe: PTSD, Major Depression, anxiety disorders, a deep sense of alienation from the self and from reality, and when it all comes crashing down when he finally has the “courage” to come out, a deep sense of betrayal because your whole life together was a lie.
I know none of the private details of Councilman Vacca’s life and marriage to his wife. However, we have to stop seeing only the side of the story that indiscriminately celebrates a gay spouse when he/she finally has the “courage” to come out. Before that, there was a husband or wife who may or may not have been traumatized, cruelly sexually rejected, deprived of consent, gaslighted or used as a prop in a play of the gay spouse's creation, or worse, used as a brood mare to produce children.
I promise you, it is beyond devastating to find out you, a human being, were merely used as a prop, a bit of set dressing, a trompe l'oeil, a "beard." It is beyond enraging to learn, as we eventually do, that someone you loved and trusted felt your life could be sacrificed for their illusion, a mere currency they exchanged to buy and build a decoy life. It is a kind of psychological rape that someone felt entitled to unilaterally decide what kind of marriage you should be in, and you weren’t given a choice, because of their fear (legitimate though that fear may have been). That a choice was taken away from you each successive year you were kept in the dark and deceived about the kind of marriage you had, each successive year you did not have knowledge and did not give permission. Your spouse commandeered your life, and didn’t tell you what you were being used for.
Gay columnist and sex advice podcaster Dan Savage is famously unsympathetic to closeted people, stating about one closet case in one advice column: "He is being dishonest, and his chicken shit closet-case games require you to be dishonest, too." This is what many straight spouses experience, only without their knowledge or permission.
This is not about demonizing closeted gay people. Many straight spouses stay quiet about their pain and trauma precisely because we don't want to hurt or offend our LGBT loved ones and friends, and we don't want to seem "too angry" or too unsympathetic to the gay spouse's coming out journey. This has to stop. It is nothing less than a form of violence to a soul to lie to another person so thoroughly. A gay spouse is not excused because they are a persecuted minority (and yes, they are a persecuted minority). You are not granted permission to lie to someone on the most intimate of human levels, to shatter someone else’s life because yours is hard.
This is an acknowledgment that wherever homophobia permeates a society, forcing people into a closet so deep and so dark that they themselves cannot bare to leave it, and will conscript non-consenting partners to maintain it, no one, not even straight spouses, are left unscathed. There is real, and lasting trauma. Let us acknowledge it.
Thank you, Kristin, for your beautiful words. No writer moves me the way you do!
If you missed any of my recent radio broadcasts, here is a link:
On 2/12/17, one of our favorite guests, Dr. Margalis Fjelstad, spoke about our roles as caretakers with men who are narcissists or have borderline personalities. I am so excited that Dr. Fjelstad’s newest book Healing from a Narcissistic Relationship: A Caretaker's Guide to Recovery, Empowerment, and Transformation will be out in late April or May. I’ll announce when it is out, and Dr. Fjelstad will return to the show to discuss the book. To listen to our show from the 2/12, here is the link:

Dr. Fjelstad has a FREE MONTHLY NEWSLETTER to help you set better boundaries. You can write to her at: to get on her mailing list. The words of this woman will definitely change your life—for the better by giving you the tools to take back your life!

I’d like to send a special thanks to my dynamite monthly co-hostess Coach Suzette Vearnon. She inspires us every single month. Here’s a link to her February show to help you through the Valentine’s Day holiday:

Ladies, this marks the official end of the holiday season. Life can start resuming now without facing the daily pain of family and lover holidays. It’s time put the past few months behind you and let the sadness go. Happier days are ahead. Just write to me at Bonkaye@aol whenever you need support.

Love, Bonnie <3